And through it all, we'll find some other way
Hello starshines
the earth says hello
And through it all, we'll find some other way
To carry on through cartilage and fluid
And did you come to stare, or wash away the blood?
--Desert Song {My Chemical Romance}
Ive made mistakes in all sorts of shapes and sizes. Ive let people get the best of me and break me like a twig, but I'm still here aren't I? Ive been through Hell and back....ive been through it all. Death. Depression. Insanity. You name it. But through it all Ive discovered theres always a light at the end of the tunnel, that theres someone waiting for me at the end of the dark...reaching out their hand to take me with them to somewhere bright and new. I can't erase what Ive done or undo the pain Ive inflicted, all i can do is move on and make amends. Its for the best. Im not going to repeat my past, or let them break me. I know there are people out there that would love to see me fall..but im not going to let them. Im going to stand up strong. I may dress and look weird, but thats me. I like dressing in black, my morbid curiousity, my poems, my songs, my random outbursts, my smile, my tears, my mood swings, shouting random words, being hyper, listening to crazy music that adults may never understand, loving people i want to love, hanging out with insane kids that I call my posse, its who I am and they can never change that. I wont be accepted by everyone I know, but the true people the matter will accept me, and the rest I'll leave behind in the tunnel. So many people have encouraged me to do my best. I know it was aggravating when I didnt listen. I didnt want to listen I had given up on everything, but Im back and Im ready for fate. I know I can do amazing things when i put my mind to it... Im a smart beautiful girl. & I have the power to impact people, and just maybe the world.
I am older than my age and my real name is not important. I've had so many names... Old names that only the wind and the trees can pronounce. I am interested in many things like illustration, creative writing, music, literature, graphic/web design, cake, shopping, cute things, and wonder... I also listen to music that I find facinating D'espairsRay, Dir En Grey, Gackt, Maximum The Hormone, Gazette, Tokio Hotel, Utada Hikaru, Malice Mizer, Coldplay, Evanescence, LM.C, P!ATD, Seether, Buck-Tick, Marilyn Manson, and My chemical romance, but i mostly listen to classical music..it always soothes me.
Im going to die aren't I?
Not unless wedding shedules, screaming girls, flowers, dresses, and that kind of stuff can kill you. And if it can Im taking it all away and we'll go elope.♥
I dont know who I truely am, not yet, i think the real me is deep inside. somewhere. waiting. so who am i? i am a friend, a enemy, a sister, a cousin, a daughter, a sympathetic ear, a niece, a granddaughter, a student, a teacher... I am a stranger... Im am not very simple, on the on the contrary I am very complicated. Ill give you explainations if you just ask. I am loved by many, and i choose to love back. Even to those who are undeserving. My true friends are amazing, theyve always been there for me. I wouldnt replace them for anyhting.
"One person's crazyness is another person's reality."~Tim Burton
I write poetry and the occasional song.. My beliefs and opinions wont be changed by silly arguements.my favorite movies are horror. my hair is highlighted and i have ear piercings. for now. i am a dreamer and i believe in true love and i am hopeless romantic. i might offend you or i could also defend you, dont get upset either way. I can be hypocritical but not often. i am very outgoing and very open. I answer most questions so dont be shy to ask. I make mistakes but dont call me on them. My life is a rollercoaster and i have been through many things, and i love to help people. Please, before you hurt yourself talk to me. i love getting to know new people and making new friends.
"And it is said that the Princess returned to her father's kingdom. That she reigned there with justice and a kind heart for many centuries. That she was loved by her people. And that she left behind small traces of her time on Earth, visible only to those who know where to look" ~Pan
goodnight my beautiful,
I'll be watching you.♥
BellaHawthorne
Female · 17 years old · Oklahoma City, OK
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